Every time I think I get a handle on what my new normal is, it changes. My adaptability skills are being tested, and I’m doing okay with that. It just takes some time for my brain to catch up to reality. Everything is going suspiciously well. Work isn’t as frustratingContinue Reading

Last night, I was having another downward spiral and talking through it with my partner. As I worked through the things I felt I needed to say, which included at least three apologies, I realized that the source of this problem was my self esteem. Because of things I saidContinue Reading

On May 7, right at 8:00 in the morning, the judge began my divorce proceedings. By 8:09 am, it was finished, and I’d filed the final paperwork, walked down the stairs, and out the door. I get warnings from people who have been divorced: “It’ll hit you eventually.” “It’ll comeContinue Reading

For the first time in what feels like forever – in reality, since the onset of RA/fibro – I’m having trouble falling asleep. I have no trouble falling asleep on my partner while watching wonderfully weird tv, but settling down at bedtime is a different story. At work: I rewroteContinue Reading

Yesterday, the county court clerk received the initial divorce papers I mailed out on the 12th. His copy and waiver should have been delivered yesterday, but even though I sent it certified Priority which doesn’t need a signature, the carrier didn’t deliver them. He’ll pick them up from his postContinue Reading

It’s another. And another. And another. At one point, I asked my therapist if it was just my perception, or if relatively significant stressful things really kept happening in my life at this pace. We talked about determining which things to actively engage with, and while I appreciate that, IContinue Reading

I’ve been having significant issues tackling the clutter and mess in the house since I had it all to myself. It just seems like a monumental job and less than half of it is mine. I find it ironic that I can’t seem to do this when I took careContinue Reading

The Calm app prompted this end of year journal. I answered some of these questions in my last post, but there’s a few things I’d like to note. 2020 Reflections What challenges did you face? You mean aside from everything newsworthy that fomented strong opposing opinions in practically everyone? IContinue Reading

Reflect on the year of 2020 and determine what the lessons learned were, will be, and what impact you want this unique year to have on you in 2021 or in the long term. In no particular order, 2020 has taught me or reinforced my beliefs that: I’m far strongerContinue Reading

On Thursday, he chose her. He said he wanted to get back in touch with her, just to see if something would come of it. He asked what my reaction would be, and I said I’d leave as soon as possible, because I won’t have her even tangentially in myContinue Reading