Steve doesn’t live here anymore. Thoughout this whole separation and all that came before it, I have been more than fair, more than generous, because I still cared about him as a person. I only had one request: that he not contact the woman he cheated with until I’d movedContinue Reading

The Calm app prompted this end of year journal. I answered some of these questions in my last post, but there’s a few things I’d like to note. 2020 Reflections What challenges did you face? You mean aside from everything newsworthy that fomented strong opposing opinions in practically everyone? IContinue Reading

On Thursday, he chose her. He said he wanted to get back in touch with her, just to see if something would come of it. He asked what my reaction would be, and I said I’d leave as soon as possible, because I won’t have her even tangentially in myContinue Reading

So many of my ideas for the farmhouse are in the kitchen. I have a complicated relationship with food, but I’ve always enjoyed the act of cooking and creating good food. My current kitchen is only minimally usable, because of another complicated relationship, which some won’t understand. Our food isContinue Reading

The day before my birthday was the day [the relationship as it was] ended. It’s a whole new thing, now. The endless spiral of questions and worries inside my head has disappeared, like a dust devil that tears itself apart and vanishes. I’m more at peace. He is not. NowContinue Reading

My therapist got me started writing “morning pages” to process and clear my head, and that’s where I’ve been writing nearly every day. It’s helped, I think. The concept is to free-write whatever comes to mind, longhand. It doesn’t have to be a narrative or make sense to anyone. It’sContinue Reading

I don’t know whether my brain fog is caused by my RA or by my RA meds, because they basically started at the same time, and the meds haven’t changed that much since. I do know that it creeps in at the most inconvenient times, and routine is the onlyContinue Reading

Last week, I returned from vacation (more about that later, I hope) on Monday. On Tuesday around noon, I received a phone call from my AM job’s supervisor: (paraphrasing) “We lost a clerk. We’re going to need you to work in the main office some, split shifts, opening at 6,Continue Reading