The day before my birthday was the day [the relationship as it was] ended. It’s a whole new thing, now. The endless spiral of questions and worries inside my head has disappeared, like a dust devil that tears itself apart and vanishes. I’m more at peace. He is not. NowContinue Reading

My therapist got me started writing “morning pages” to process and clear my head, and that’s where I’ve been writing nearly every day. It’s helped, I think. The concept is to free-write whatever comes to mind, longhand. It doesn’t have to be a narrative or make sense to anyone. It’sContinue Reading

I don’t know whether my brain fog is caused by my RA or by my RA meds, because they basically started at the same time, and the meds haven’t changed that much since. I do know that it creeps in at the most inconvenient times, and routine is the onlyContinue Reading

Last week, I returned from vacation (more about that later, I hope) on Monday. On Tuesday around noon, I received a phone call from my AM job’s supervisor: (paraphrasing) “We lost a clerk. We’re going to need you to work in the main office some, split shifts, opening at 6,Continue Reading

I’ve been reading Adam Savage’s “Every Tool’s a Hammer,” and mid-book, came across a section about creative momentum. I’m familiar with the concept, and have dealt with it on physical projects – or failed to, like the half a scarf I made once, that’s still sitting in a box waitingContinue Reading

Early Thursday morning, I woke up and had a completely surreal episode of strange symptoms that came and went with no predictability. I can’t say how long it lasted, because I lost consciousness a couple of times. The best guess I could throw at it was a panic attack withContinue Reading